Its been a bit

Well its been a bit since I posted on here so quick catch up on me. I have found I am good at what I do, I wrestled in Calgary on this past weekend with one of my best friends as my tag partner we didnt win but the two other teams we faced will not forget us any time soon. Ran into a friend I havent seen in a long time she seems more happy in life now, good visit with my youngest child hes good and my oldest turns 15 very soon.

A Heart Beat

There once was a man who thought he was just on the earth to be a chaos figure then after chance meeting he realized that there was more to life. He now knows there is good as well.

Damn crossing the street

Yesterday my kid and I were going to tim hortons and two trucks stopped for us to cross but the red car choose to stop in the back end of one of the trucks

Intrested In Life

It has taken me a bit of time to let go and start enjoying life again, I have been pouting I would call it not that that's the right way to be not at all. I have been thinking about all the stuff I have gone threw and the stuff I have caused to happen with negative thoughts. I know there is a time period that your allowed to think about whats what I figure you have less than a year well that's what my problem has been I let it go on in my head for to long and that is just wrong for me, I am glad I have true friends who put up with the shit and I am sorry for you all having to put up with it. Next chapter in my life is a go and its time to make the run of a life.

I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son ok I said it you won your right I was wrong

Fire Pit

Nice long weekend sat by my fire pit for two nights ok Sat night I slept by fire pit but that was cause of beer

Friendship

I have a few people who I consider true friends they are the people I would do anything for them and thier families. But it feels sometimes I am the friend that its ok to be the friend but it's not ok if I'm the friend who is willing to do other things for the family, see let me explain one day I said to a friend why dont I watch the kids for you and the wife, His reply was simple and direct not meant to hurt my feelings but he said to me ya don't take this wrong but there is no way ever the wife will ever let you watch the kids. Now I don't know how else to take it's one of those things that make me think ok your a friend Ivan but not that friend who we trust with kids and the funny thing is my two kids have turned out ok (atleast I belive they have). Its becoming clearer to me as the years go bye maybe I have made the wrong choices with my life more often than not. I now have the wisdom to move past the little things people say about me but I still have feelings even if I do hide who I am .