Intrested In Life

It has taken me a bit of time to let go and start enjoying life again, I have been pouting I would call it not that that's the right way to be not at all. I have been thinking about all the stuff I have gone threw and the stuff I have caused to happen with negative thoughts. I know there is a time period that your allowed to think about whats what I figure you have less than a year well that's what my problem has been I let it go on in my head for to long and that is just wrong for me, I am glad I have true friends who put up with the shit and I am sorry for you all having to put up with it. Next chapter in my life is a go and its time to make the run of a life.

I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son, I love my 14 year old son ok I said it you won your right I was wrong

Fire Pit

Nice long weekend sat by my fire pit for two nights ok Sat night I slept by fire pit but that was cause of beer

Friendship

I have a few people who I consider true friends they are the people I would do anything for them and thier families. But it feels sometimes I am the friend that its ok to be the friend but it's not ok if I'm the friend who is willing to do other things for the family, see let me explain one day I said to a friend why dont I watch the kids for you and the wife, His reply was simple and direct not meant to hurt my feelings but he said to me ya don't take this wrong but there is no way ever the wife will ever let you watch the kids. Now I don't know how else to take it's one of those things that make me think ok your a friend Ivan but not that friend who we trust with kids and the funny thing is my two kids have turned out ok (atleast I belive they have). Its becoming clearer to me as the years go bye maybe I have made the wrong choices with my life more often than not. I now have the wisdom to move past the little things people say about me but I still have feelings even if I do hide who I am .

Pictures

I have been fixing a wall in my house with pictures of my friends and the people I consider family its been a long journey into all aspects from my life I really enjoyed it now it has got me wanting to take more pictures and since I have 5 different film cameras it looks like I will be taking more

New comic book day

Got to love Wednesday new comic book day not that i can afford mine but its good to have a friend who owns the store

Comics

Comic books are a great way to get kids reading

3 years

I was with the same company for 3 years and with the layoff it is time to move on and they understand everyone need to pay bills or so they say, I know its been a trying time for everyone on the planet but when your this low can you get any lower I will let you know if i get to the very bottom

Well a year

Its been almost a whole year that my oldest son has been living with me, I know that it sounds different that I say that but for most of him life he has lived with him mother and brother then her husband and new baby sister, His brother is also my son witch works out well for me I love having two boys they are so different from each other, but I digress as I was saying a whole year is almost done and it has been a very good year, He is 14 now and is getting to be at the point of becoming a mad man, I am looking forward to helping him become a good man soon it will be the other kids turn to choose to live with me and I get to do it one more time.

The move forward in life

Making change can and is a big deal to people most don't like the changes that happen or more to the point if they don't have a say in the change well Monday May 3, 2010 was the day I opened my eyes and started the changes I needed to make for me and my family now I don't look at family the way others look at family my family are the people I choose to make my family not the blood family but the family that helps you continue to grow as a human being.

What a long month

Well the month of April was a interesting time I started a new chapter on my life, I know who I am what I want and how I'm going to get there now allot of people won't like it but hey its time I look after me as well. To end the month I got drunk and sent allot of hateful text messages out that night passed out not remembering where my truck was. It is time for a change and the time is now for me.