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Thinking about what people want from me. I'm not sure what to do anymore.

Thinking

I spend way to much time thinking about stuff. I know when I do this it causes me great stress I am not sure how not to do this I then get down about who I am not a great thing. Don't get me wrong I know everyone thinks and its healthy its the things I think about that get in the way. I have taken the steps I need to to move on in life (not the bad way move on) the good steps. I have hobbies that I enjoy I spend time with my kids and take care of my house but I can't seem to make choices about me that make me happy. I know a blog is helping me out for sure I need to write more and I will soon very soon there will be more content here.

Wow Time Goes So Fast

Wow time goes so fast when your trying to live a good life. I have done allot of changes this year I have had weight changes up and down my body keeps changing and i'm happy for that, I know I had some big mood changes from being so happy to being so depressed not knowing I was depressed getting laid off finding work getting screwed over for my pay check and loosing some loved ones, I took the time to step back look at the big picture and start the changes. My oldest son living with me full time for the first time in over 10 years was a big eye opener (love it) I cant wait to see the man (Mattia) he will become, My other child (Sydney) hes fantastic he is so funny in the way he deals with things, Hes going to be a handful as he gets bigger love you boys both so much. My friends who have been true friends some very good ones and the ones that weren't are gone out of my life good bye losers. My friends that are in my life are some of the most fantastic people in the world. I don't spend as much time with them as I should but I want them to know they have helped more than they will ever know

Wow its been a bit

It has been a bit since I wrote anything, I have been making changes in my life that some people will like and others wont but that's ok, I am enjoying who I am becoming I have a few people who I will need to thank. To Boris thanks for showing me its ok to have the ability to face who and what I have become to Boris wife & family thanks for letting me be around even with my faults. I want to thank my ex wifes for being good moms and I want to thank my kids for being good and not stepping out of line in anyway that cant be hanndled at home.

Its been a bit

Well its been a bit since I posted on here so quick catch up on me. I have found I am good at what I do, I wrestled in Calgary on this past weekend with one of my best friends as my tag partner we didnt win but the two other teams we faced will not forget us any time soon. Ran into a friend I havent seen in a long time she seems more happy in life now, good visit with my youngest child hes good and my oldest turns 15 very soon.

A Heart Beat

There once was a man who thought he was just on the earth to be a chaos figure then after chance meeting he realized that there was more to life. He now knows there is good as well.

Damn crossing the street

Yesterday my kid and I were going to tim hortons and two trucks stopped for us to cross but the red car choose to stop in the back end of one of the trucks